“There needs to be passion behind what you’re doing or it’s not worth it,”
I think I know that passion. It is that, what makes you stay out in the cold at night, while your own a** freezes to a state of numbness, to find yourself in the middle of nowhere at 5 am, the thing that gives sparkle in your eyes and makes you dream absolutely impossible things, spending hours and days discussing events, dreams, ideas, crazy and stupid by themselves … Enduring the looks of the others who will never understand you and who will scream “INSANE” in several different languages and tones. And in my head that cult phrase is repeating, over and over again, and makes me smile every time:
“Normality , my friends, is highly overrated”
I didn’t start watching House. When I stumbled across the show it was just starting on one of the channels here in Bulgaria, and I didn’t even paid any attention. TV was on, I was on the computer chatting with some friends, when I heard some people talking. But I heard several lines and I stopped to see who was speaking. Because I laughed even before I knew what was that about. Then for a few minutes, it was probably in the middle of some episode, I watched and there was that. Every line, every word was spot on. Nothing off, nothing redundant, nothing to get my eyes or ears off it even for a second. I didn’t even think I was hooked, until the first part of Euphoria –there was 3 days until the next episode?!? And I wanted it NOW!!
I found myself thinking and talking about the show, reading articles subscribing in forums and everything related with the show – without even realizing the effect that the show would have on me in the next years. I fell in love. With the characters, actors, the story, all the questions that was rising in me… It really did get under my skin.
And I wasn’t alone! It turned out that there are many like me. People who I would never know or meet if it wasn’t for House. Some of them became close friends. With some of these people I spent thousands of hours, sleepless nights talking, discussing discovering, trying to predict the endless universe of House. I am sure every fan of House can say the same.
Without even realizing the show started to change me. Subtle things, ideas, ways of seeing different events. I realize that sometimes House has the same ideas of life as me, and as other fans, I was no longer the outcast, who is almost always silent. I’ve had a voice. And found a certain way to express it. As many of the fans, House made me think of doing something. I know people who started to write, to draw, to use Photoshop, making videos, and all that from the start. Because of House and all the reading , my English got better , and now I have the freedom to use a language that I had basic knowledge of , and I learned it even without an effort. Because of House, an old forgotten hobby returned- I started to write again. Not only that- I started to WANT to write. It’s isn’t great or something noticeable, but it’s something that I love and makes me feel good.
For me that show opened doors where I was sure were closed forever. An image of a man, so brilliant, so deeply tortured, struggling to survive and fighting against the whole world and against him! House makes you love him, and hate him in the same time sometimes, but can’t leave you indifferent. When “House” is funny, it’s hysterical, when it’s sad, it’s not only sad, it takes you to the deepest ends of the depression and destruction, when “House” shows love it’s never light and sunshine and rainbows. When House cuts, these are never scratches on the surface, they are stab wounds and the scars never actually heal. But when House, the man, loves, his feelings go so deep and dramatic, his struggles and torture so profoundly written and displayed that can make most writers of romantic novels eat their books page by page. And even if when his life sometimes looks like an apocalyptic picture after a disaster, you just can’t take your eyes of it. You don’t want to. Because you know that there is always something you can see and learn about the world or yourself from it.
And after all that there will be people who will say COME ON, IT’S JUST A TV SHOW!!! It is a tv show alright. But never “Just”.
To me House always will be much more. More than a tv, more than a project, more than anything “just”. To me House is a story, who will continue long after it was written and executed. To me House is music- some of the best music I ever listen to. House is also a science- not just medicine, but psychology, chemistry, physics, math, history and experiments –with human nature, of it’s deepest secrets and emotions. House is an art- of teaching, of loving, of expressing, of forgiving and accepting. Of telling a story, that will touch people, that would make them think, ask questions, looking for answers, decide who they want to be, what they want to be.
The fact is, that the creators created an Universe. With every single element put to it’s place, to the tiniest detail. It was perfect bitter -sweet place where people tend to come back. To discover over and over again.
House is an inspiration. More than anything House makes people THINK. Makes them want to know and understand more, to be more, to do more.
Now with it’s end it will be the end of an era in television. It will be missed, I am sure of that. Because I know how it’s fans are – they are the most passionate and crazy/in the good way/ people I have ever met. Because to be a fan of it as I found out in the process you need to be like that. If not you won’t understand the idea.
After all how else one would know why the phrase “It’s never Lupus!” is hilarious ? And how cool is that!?